My name is Nicholas Tan and I reside in Malaysia. Ever since I was a child, I was deeply in love with God. However, as I grew older, my thoughts, perspectives, and focus began to shift due to influences from peers, celebrities and worldly standards. Without a doubt, I knew that I was hell bound, but, I was stubborn and ignorant to make amends with Jesus the Lord. Day after day, I lived a defeating, purposeless and sadistic life which sickens me to the core of my soul. Most importantly, I was suffering from lust which I practiced since I was a young child in kindergarten due to unfortunate and coincidental circumstances.
There I was, wasting my life, doing whatever which provides me with the utmost pleasure. To cut the long story short, one day, as I was walking back home, I came across kitten and approached it immediately. After several minutes have passed, I gave up because I was not able to grab it from the car. At the very moment I walked towards the main road, I just froze and a car flashed towards me at approximately 80km/h. Undoubtedly, I know that the gracious, merciful and good Lord has saved my life despite all my flaws and imperfections. That day, at home, I had a long thought and analysis of the thought-provoking and heart-churning event which has just taken place in my life. Sincerely, I thought to myself, at that particular instance, if I were to die, I would be a drag to hell for sure! For the rest of my eternity, I would be tortured, burned and be named for eternity. However, thanks to the grace and goodness of God, I was 1000% saved from that jaw-dropping and horrendous accident which could well potentially end my life. I am now 17 and I want to thank the Lord for everything that he has done in my life. He has given me endless blessings, a great family and fulfills every single one of my needs. Also, he keeps to his promise and will never ever break it. During the darkest moments of my life, step by step, day-by-day, he patiently tries to pull me closer because I was running further and further into the trap of sin. Although I still face some masturbation addiction currently, I will never give up and I will seek him for care, strength, and shelter when I feel hopeless and depressed. For all the non-believers out there, I just want to tell you the absolute fact that “God is deeply in love with you, no matter what You have done!” Just trust in him and seek him that you may find him and feel his presence in your life. Do not conform to the standards of the world and never listen to any of the lies told by our spiritual enemy which is the Devil. Their goals are simply killing, stealing and destroying. Therefore, we must be extremely alert and start REPENTING. The reason why I emphasized on repentance is that surely RAPTURE is coming soon if none of you wish to be left behind please confess all your sins and declare him as your Lord and Saviour as soon as possible. I am currently struggling with lusts, according to Revelation, Jesus said that during the end times, we will face many trials, temptations, and tribulations. So hold fast, don’t lose your faith in Christ and always look towards him. I feel so loved by God and always remember “God is madly in love with us”, and I pray that we brothers and sisters in Christ would hang through all the trials and difficulties which are currently happening or are about to show it’s the presence.
Yours sincerely, Lover of Christ (Nicholas Tan Wen Kit)